This year I am trying to write more posts and to blog walk more. Although sometimes it seems impossible due to my hectic schedule but so far it goes quite OK. I started blogging in 2008 on Blogspot, mostly to release my frustration as a newbie living in a new country. I did not try to write for readers, and I did not want to share it to people, it was more like my online journal. If I read them back now, I get instantly a headache 
And then when things got a bit easier for me with the study, my job and I was getting more acclimatised with living abroad, I made this blog. I am now writing about my deeper feelings, opinions and ideas I have about life in general, or just random holiday pictures. I did not read other people’s blogs, well some..but mostly, I read street style blogs or blogs of friends from school or from work. I do not care with my blog stats, I am more of a secret blogger. But since 2013, something tickles me to be more social in blogosphere. I want to share more to the world 
Have you ever compared yourself to other people? I bet you have done it at least a couple of times in your life. Me too, and I hate it. I think the first time I learned this sick habit was when I was a kid. I’ve noticed that many (older generation) parents loved comparing their children to other people’s children. I don’t know what the reason behind it, please do not ask me. I think they never thought about the consequences and the impacts to their children, though they never meant to do us harm by their comments. It started with an “innocent” remark, ” Look at Minah*, she is a diligent person and likes to study not like you, lazy bum. You should look up to her!” . *Minah is apparently a bright student and has flying marks. Or with a “good-intentioned” remark like this, ” You are getting chubbier, stop eating or else you can be as fat as Minah!” (poor Minah, hehehe. I just use Minah as an example). The parents are obviously trying to help their kids to be a smarter student, or push their kids to achieve better marks at school but this kind of remark is hurtful and does not really help kids. Kids will feel more that they are useless and resentful. The other remark about weight, is absolutely hurtful. To compare your child who is perhaps a little bit overweight to someone who is obviously obese, is just mean. To mock your kid rather than to cook healthier and guide your kid to a better and healthier life style, is a no go. I feel really sorry to parents who still do this to their kids. I am personally not a parent yet, but I was once a little kid. I felt how it was to be compared to someone else, and it was no fun..It was more traumatic, actually. And it made me really insecure about myself. And from that moment on, the compare button grew in me. But, I am a big girl now and I understood long time ago that it was actually considered as a constructive criticism
I blamed my lack of self-determination..
